The sermon ended
    last echo
        bouncing around the chapel
off the walls into ears and out

        I felt like screaming
        
father started mumbling again
"to the back of the church"
      I saw his Christ
      Holy Holy Holy  
           Jesus
in his flowing robes not to be touched

           or look --
     someone got in my way
  running out into the world
         struggling
    after his god always
  untouchable out of reach
  
           over
           
         finally
        
      in self pity
        weariness
           I
      stopped to sit
      
          My
        Jesus
  tapped me on the shoulder
   as three hungry children